Afternoons are for Naps.

Today was an alright day.  I kinda slept all day, but B got in some good play time.  I have our bed against a wall so she sleeps on the inside between me and the wall and then when she wakes up she plays until she gets bored, then I'll stick her in her jumperoo until she gets bored, and then I'll put her in her play pen which I set up again with all her toys and she'll play in there until she gets hungry, and then I'll take her out and put her back on the bed to eat, and she'll fall asleep and the cycle repeats... Sometimes I wonder if I'm secretly depressed.  My first summer after college I was seriously depressed but didn't know it until the end of summer when I had a huge breakdown.  I remember saying that I hated that I felt expected to smile and be strong when I didn't want to.  I know now that I have to do all that for her.  And maybe that's what makes me strong, is knowing that I'm doing all this for her.  Either way, as of late, I cannot pry myself away from the bed.  I need some friends close by so that I can have play dates.  I try to call my friends but they all seem to be busy or wahtever.  My sister is in Baltimore and can't come down because of work, my mom has her thing going on in Illinois, and my other friends all have lives I guess...  I really don't know what to do... Maybe I'll finally join that thing... umm Tidewater Mommies? is it?  I think maybe I just need to get out of the house... I'm probably not depressed, just lonely and sick of the mundane day to day life... it's getting so monotonous. This is me and B napping today: